i want to say to all my eggy or trans curious friends: take the fucking estradiol. get the T cream. try it and see if you feel better, if the dysphoria you weren’t sure you had dissipates. at least then you’ll know. they warn you, “permanent changes to your body!!!!” but it’s slow, if you want it to be.
for instance, my body had a lot of shape change in the first 6 months, fat migrated from my hips to my belly. i’ll be a year in april, and i’ve just started getting a beard on my cheeks and chin. my muscles started changing a month or two ago. and that’s at 100mg/wk.
but the mental changes happened much faster. once my system was testosterone dominant, i felt more mentally healthy than i’ve ever been in my life. my body feels better. i feel *correct* I don’t know if that’s universal, it’s just my experience. i think people get scared off trying it.
like, “changes are permanent!!!” fuck man, so are most changes in life. i didn’t choose being fat or sick, and those were things that left me with permanent bodily changes. it’s not something to be scared of, just aware. and you can stop whenever. no shame in it.
you don’t have to be anything but not your birth assigned gender to want to try hormones. i am genderfluid but lean masc, but i still present pretty femme. you do not have to become a Man or Woman if you don’t want to, though you can if you do! that’s freedom, baby!
if you feel the queer or trans community doesn’t accept you, you are not in the right piece of the community. there is no one community. you will find your people. it might take time. i’m kind of a queer cryptid and it’s taken me a while! it’s fine. you won’t be alone.
you won’t be alone.
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